Surprised!

I was not expecting what I saw when I walked into the room. All my friends and my fam there to see me. So shocked! It was great! I loved it! I have to admit I was not in the mood to pack up Alex and go up to the church to drop off a few forgotten items for a neighbors party (my mom's cover story). But once I got into that room all was forgotten. I can tell you one of the best surprises! And to have so many people there. Steph came down form Logan, Ad came from work, and I'm sure everyone had similar stories. I loved it! What a good day! After my party I went with my Family to the fair which was fun. I got to see my old neighbors the Neves. It was great. Sunday my mom made my birthday dinner...so yummy! And of course today is my birthday. It's been like a party for three days. How great is that?! Thanks everyone for all the love! I love you all!

A Doctor's Worry

August 15
Isn't funny how you can have the same disease as someone else, someone you love and you're not worried about you having it but you're terrified for the other person? So afraid of what it is and can do to them. This rings loud and clear for me as this is how I feel. Today my doctor told me I'm showing yet another sign of lupus. My joints are inflamed (she found four or five between my hands and feet). It's made her concerned. She doesn't want it to be lupus or to give me that label. She said it would make it a lot harder to get married, impossible to get insurance, and if I want kids (which is a yes) it will be very difficult. It would be a high risk pregnancy with lots of possible complications. I'd need major monitoring the whole time and specialty doctors. I'm not worried about the marriage bit, the right guy will love me even with lupus. That won't stand in his/our way. I hate the insurance thing-it's so dumb not to let sick people have insurance. It just doesn't make any seance. And while the pregnant part does have me a little apprehensive, I'm not in dispare about it. Ever since I got my patriarchal blessing I've gathered that it wouldn't be easy. But what can I say, I'm a difficult child. And I'll show how difficult I can be by fighting it. For the man who loves me for me and not mortal things. For the sweet children I want so badly to bring into this world (even if it means adoption-totally good with that). For every person who has stood by me every moment. And for me, I'm too stubborn to let this illness win.
Now I must say it's not official yet. My Dr wants to wait and see. I'll be getting some more test results to help guide her. But I'm ready for whatever the outcome may be. I've had the feeling since mom was diagnosed . That feeling became stronger when I found out fibromyalga often turns into lupus. So it's only a matter of time really. I'm good for I am blessed. I just want my mom to be okay. I worry about her.

High School Tag!

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I accept your tag Manda...now I shall stroll down memory lane. By the way, I stole some of Manda's answers.

1. Did you date anyone from your high school? Yep.

2. What kind of car did you drive? The great white taxi...My Dodge Aries. Poor people with long legs :)

3. Were you a party animal? Not the “normal” party animal but I was always playing with friends and having movie nights and stuff :)

4. Were you considered a flirt? Not a crazy one, but if the mood took me I would have my moments.

5. Were you in band, orchestra or choir? Band geek baby! I did a bit of orchestra when they needed me.

6. Were you a nerd? All the way!

7. Were you on any varsity teams? Heavens no

8. Did you ever get suspended or expelled? No but I did cut class early a time or two

9. Can you still sing the fight song? Yes but I didn't learn it till Sr. as I always played it in the band.

10. Who were your favorite teachers? Mrs. Lofgren and Mr. Ferrin

11. Where did you sit for lunch? Commons area mostly.

12. What was your school's full name? Hunter High School

13. What was your mascot? Wolverines

14. If you could go back and do it again, would you? Yes, would change a few things though…

15. What do you remember most about graduation? Signing in grad, setting up a fake proposal, chalking Bro Taylor @ 1am ish, and kicking Jon Earl out around 3am then jumping on his bed for breakfast later that morning.

16. Where did you go on Senior Skip Day? We didn’t have one but I skipped a lot my Sr. year!

17. Were you in any clubs? Sign, Drama, Pep Band

18. Have you gained weight since then? Unfortunately :( way too much

19. Who was your prom date? Derek and Jon Peterson (hooray for duct tape!)

20. Are you planning on going to your 10 year reunion? Maybe, if we have one. It would rock if they did other years too so I could see everyone

21. Did you take any school trips? California for band-yeah baby!

22. What are your best memories from high school? Sr. year...so much drama but the best people and so many incredible times.

Tag! You're It!!